Friday, December 24, 2010

A Look Back and a Glance Forward

As I look back at 2010, I seem to forget the hard time and heartaches that came along for the ride.  True, there were many disappointments but that didn't define my year.  My year was defined by what I learned from it all:

What I learned about love is that I can't save someone from their own demons.   Only they can.  I've learned that six months away from dating is one of the greatest gifts that I could have given my heart.  I've learned that money doesn't buy love.  It just made me poor.  I learned that I am ready to get married and have children.  But first, I need to find someone who is emotionally capable of loving me in return.

What I learned about music is that releasing myself through lyrics and melody is what keeps me healthy and sane.  I've learned that it's important to be reminded that though others may feel connected to my writing doesn't mean I'm any more special then they are.  I've learned that there is a lot of competition in writing but I am proud to continue supporting others instead of seeking sabotage.  I've learned that music is the key that opens my soul free an that is what connects me to others.  I am forever grateful.

What I learned about friendship is that there is nothing embarrassing about only having five good friends.  It's stronger then having only 200 acquaintances.  I learned that it's hard to justify why you're friends with someone since childhood who no longer contributes to the friendship. And yet, who knows me better ?  I learned that I am really blessed to have my friends who know me and love me.  And they are also blessed to have me.  (And admitting that is not of ego but truth).

What I learned about traveling is that being on the road can be lonely.  But the people you meet on your travels helps erase a lot of that.  Thank you Australia, Boston and London. 

2011 holds incredible possibilities.  I have exciting new projects including the re-opening of a chapter of my life I thought was closed and hearing my work sung in another language (details to come for both soon).

I have vacancy in my heart again that is ready to be rented and owned.

2011 holds the things I didn't finish in 2010. 

As I write this, I can honestly say life is about learning and I look forward to 2011 ...

who knows what I will learn next.   Or who I will meet.  All I know is that I feel blessed and thankful and can't imagine what's next for me  - but will continue to dream it.

To you reading this - thank you.  Thank you for believing in me and letting me learn from you.  Your letter or your hug or your handshake or your smile - it taught me something.  Thank you.


xx -SA


  1. As one compiling my own list of resolutions, your post really touched me. A year of personal growth creates subtleties of character, and your lessons of the heart will undoubtedly better prepare you for the next appearance of love.

    Best wishes, in all that you do, for a great 2011, professionally and (more importantly) personally.

  2. I love this...realizing myself how important the few really good friends are and how even through loss, something positive will come of it as long as you learn the lessons the hardship brings and have faith...

  3. I just stumbled across your music and not only do I love it, but this blog post hit very close to my heart. Thank you so much for sharing this.