Wednesday, October 27, 2010

'WHAT I WANNA BE WHEN I GROW UP' - A Labor of Love

Every time I finish a new album I always say 'THAT'S THE LAST ONE.'  I always swear off writing and working on a new album.  It takes so much out of me.  And yet, not even a month passes by and I've already started setting out for the next adventure.  I guess, at the end of the day, writing is a part of what defines me.  It's who I am.  I am a writer.  I need words and music - they are my therapy.   'What I Wanna Be When I Grow Up' is no different and yet, it is.  This compilation of music is the most personal collection of music that I have written.   I listen to many of the songs and they pull me back to a very recent time - as many of the songs are so fresh I can still feel the fire that went in to writing the song in the first place.   

    The title, itself, is very personal.  Without giving too much - a year ago, a producer whom I respected asked me 'What is it you want to be when you grow up, Scott ?'  Asking this of a 32 year old man who had believed he had reached success in his writing, I felt confused by this question.  When I sat there, puzzled for an explanation, the producer insisted - "quit writing and go back to school. " He told me, in no uncertain terms, that I would never find success in this field because I don't have the talent that it takes to reach the level of success that many of my peers will eventually see for themselves.    
  
      Now, let it be said - this albums title was never meant as a 'fuck you.'  No.  This albums title is a statement.  At the end of the day - all I could ever be when I grew up was a writer.  Here, in this album, you will find my heart on my sleeve.  If ONE person finds comfort in my work - then, Mr. Producer - You were wrong.  I am successful.   Ok, maybe it is a fuck you. 

xx -SA